eyes wide open

i think i'm afraid to go to sleep because it will make tomorrow real.
can i change my mind?
i'm not entirely sure that i deserve to graduate from college.
i should've worked harder.
i should've obtained more knowledge.
the world will expect more from me if i receive that rolled up sheet of paper...

the deal i made with my brain:

i give it sleep, it gives me words

the deal i made with my body:
i give it dance, it gives me breath

the deal i made with my spirit:
i pray, it gives me calmness

the deal i made with my heart:
i love unconditionally, i never cease to feel loved

texting:

me: Put your phasers on stun!

Dad: Sorry, mine are set to vaporize. Tell the Klingons not to mess with me.

m: I'll do my best! By the way, what is a phaser?

D: Pistol looking weapons, like ray guns

m: Oh! My teacher in technology class made a reference to it and it reminded me of you! Did you know it's my last day of class ever?!

D: Woo hoo, school's out forever.....maybe

m: Maybe....

Don't worry

about joining in late!

lately i've been wishing that i had been a part of the dance community at Cal for longer

Yet I've always known that some folks are only meant to be part of my life for a short time.

But that does not mean that they don't have a tremendous influence.
These two ladies helped me find the dancer in myself.
we moved
we danced
we wrestled
we laughed
we cried
we breathed
we expressed

i felt myself grow in their presence
i became more comfortable in my body, by being utterly exposed
i would never have pictured myself in a piece like ours,
but am so grateful that i was

Berlynn

my cousin! she's 4. a dancer. and loquacious. like me :)

Why I LOVE preschool!

Yesterday a little girl named Neomi said this to me:

"Juliette, at nap time when I lay down and close my eyes, I have a peace so filling in my heart."