writer's block

as always with a story i love,
i cannot find words with enough value to describe it

hmmm...

i suppose i'm still deciding on what extent i agree with this:

It is not the consciousness of men that determines their being, but, on the contrary, their social being that determines their consciousness.
-Marx

the clouds i see on milvia street

historic

so tonight i cooked dinner for the very first time...meaning actual dinner (i.e. not waffles or sandwiches or salad or microwavable soup, etc.) It was.. (drumroll please) chicken and peas!! So (according to Tiffany) September 24, 2007 will eternally be a historic day in my life. And I agree, that's why I'm documenting it here. Oh and then we made cake. I think it's a pretty cake:

in order of appearance this weekend

disturbia: really scary!












the fountain: so lovely, we watched it twice :-)














the graduate: incredibly funny

the view from above

i had some fun with effects on these:

the intersection at hearst and milvia

hearst

the joys of climbing

the view from below:

sleep!

when did you cease to be my friend?
why am i not permitted to go off into the land of dreams?

roommate dinner

not so rosy

i don't get embarrassed easily...
so it must have been fairly substantial if i was blushing that much.

wedding and dinner and funnies

i really liked this tree



the cave! it was marvelous

mom's birthday dinner

silly :-)
pretty

things my family said at dinner and on the way home:

me: What kind is it?
dad (as he was drinking a mango margarita): this is man-go. If it were for a girl it would be
called woman-stop.

grandma: How does it feel to be 56 today?
crystalynne: Oh, mom said that she's going backwards now.
grandma: Oh so you mean 65?

mom: Did I tell you we fixed the fountain today?
dad: What was wrong with it?
mom: It needed water. ;-)

!

i just discovered that we have an asian pear tree in our backyard.
:-)

i think i have a tendency to talk in circles and never get to the heart of what i actually desire to say.

the square's influence...

a sign posted at waterworld read:

Caution! This will be a high speed, turbulent ride!


...that's what she said

if

you were here today i would have picked that bright yellow flower i saw near the path and carried it to you

blessings on this tuesday

causes for extra joy today:

-a boy in my dance class wearing a shirt bearing only the word SMILE
-running into a friend on campus who said very genuinely, "I'm happy to see you!"
-riding my bike in my blue dress
-smiling with my eyes and sometimes with my lips at strangers who pass and then receiving a smile in return (and vice versa)
-meeting a man during my walk to Newman who was on his way to view the sunset. (He liked the color of my bike!) He told me about the weather in Europe and how the he is grateful for the warmth the sun emits in Berkeley.
-dinner with Lisa! (an appearance by you always makes my day better)
-singing at Seekers...specifically standing next to Fr. Charlie because he was singing a little off just to make me laugh. I couldn't get through one song without cracking a smile and then breaking into hysterics.
-having an old friend trust in me again, that was one of the nicest details of the day. I felt valued in being a confidant to one I care about.
-tea and cake at Au Coquelet
-listening to David Hernandez's ideas; he is truly amazing. If I possess even a fraction of his intelligence and passion for life, then that will be an accomplishment.
-running into Joe and Jo :-)
-understanding that my insignificance and significance in the world exist simultaneously

A Franciscan Prayer

God, bless me with discomfort
at easy answers,
half-truths, and superficial relationships,
so that You will live deep in my heart.

God, bless me with anger
at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people and the earth
so that I will work for justice, equity and peace

God, bless me with tears
to shed for those who suffer so that I will reach out my hand
to comfort them and change their pain into joy.

God bless me with the foolishness
to think that I can make a difference in the world,
so that I will do the things which others say cannot be done.



I learned this prayer at Newman last night.

pictures

of my birthday i've just recently acquired from my mom

pretty, 50's, heart

Exodus 3:14

God replied, "I am who am." Then he added, "This is what you shall tell the Israelites: I AM sent me to you."

I spoke at Seekers tonight on the passage about the burning bush (Exodus 3: 1-14). My favorite part was at the end. It just seems like there is nothing more perfect to describe God. I Am is so simple and so complex and so confusing and just all encompassing. It's just two short words that can either be followed by something like I Am comfort or I Am always here or I Am love, or they can just stand alone: I Am. it's enough. It's amazing, I keep thinking about it. It's just so perfect, and I can't even really comprehend it.

Once you have flown,
you will walk the Earth
with your eyes turned skyward;
for there you have been,
there you long to return.

-Leonardo DaVinci