ambivalent

I can either write about something amazing or something incredibly frustrating.
I'm toying with both and neither.

In one part of my life, I am so strikingly shocked and overjoyed that I smile intensely whenever I think about it. An unexplainable blessing recently arrived and released my soul from some very rusty old chains.

In another aspect, I think God is trying super hard to push me over the edge. I'm so ravaged that I am at a loss for words. It's a fruitless, awful feeling to be stripped of all patience and courage and strength.

Nothing like being on two entirely different ends of the spectrum simultaneously huh?!